No one knows but me :(:

I pretended I'm glad you went away 

These four walls closin' more every day 

And I'm dying inside 

And nobody knows it but me 

Like a clown I put on a show 

The pain is real even if nobody knows 

Now I'm cryin' inside 

And nobody knows it but me 

Why didn't I say 

The things I needed to say 

How could I let my angel get away 

Now my world is just a-tumblin' down 

I can see it so clearly 

But you're nowhere around 

The nights are lonely 

The days are so sad 

And I just keep thinkin' about 

The love that we had 

And I'm missin' you 

And nobody knows it but me 

I carry a smile when I'm broken in two 

Now I'm nobody without someone like you 

I'm tremblin' inside, and nobody knows it but me 

I lie awake, its a quarter past three 

I'm screamin' at night 

As if I thought you'd hear me 

Yeah my heart is callin' you 

And nobody knows it but me 

How blue can I get 

You could ask my heart 

But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart 

A million words couldn't say just how I feel 

A million years from now you know I'll be lovin' you still 

The nights are lonely 

The days are so sad 

And I just keep thinkin' about 

The love that we had 

And I'm missin' you 

And nobody knows it but me 

Tomorrow mornin' I'm hittin' the dusty road 

Gonna find you wherever, ever you might go 

I'm gonna unload my heart 

And hope you come back to me 

Said when the nights are lonely... 

please come back to me!

heard he sang a lullaby 

I heard he sang it from his heart 

When I found out thought I would die 

Because that lullaby was mine 

I heard he sealed it with a kiss 

He gently kissed her cherry lips 

I found that so hard to believe 

Because his kiss belonged to me 

How could an angel break my heart 

Why didn't he catch my falling star 

I wished I didn't wish so hard 

Maybe I wished our love apart 

How could an angel break my heart 

I heard her face was white as rain 

Soft as a rose that blooms in may 

He keeps her picture in a frame 

And when he sleeps he calls her name 

I wonder if she makes him smile 

The way he used to smile at me 

I hope she doesn't make him laugh 

Because his laugh belongs to me 

Oh my soul is dying, it's crying 

I'm trying to understand 

Please help me :(

He's Gone..

When he left 

My heart he did take 

I loved him like no one else would 

Gave him everything that I possibly could 

My heart 

My soul 

It was all made of gold 

Something about him just made me feel whole 

The first months where the best 

I often wonder what happened to the rest 

I know he'll move on 

Live a life with me gone 

It will kill me inside 

That I won't deny 

I don't understand 

How can you tell one so many lies 

When all I did was tell the truth 

Every word I said I meant 

Never would I break his heart this way 

Make him feel that he had no reason to stay 

I hung on everything he had to say 

Let my heart set me up to break 

There will always be another 

But how can I just forget what we had 

Our first kiss 

Our last hug 

The way he made me feel so in love 

I don't know what to do 

With him gone no longer am I whole 

I feel that I don't have the power to go on 

My heart is shattered and I don't know where to go 

I need something in my life to fill this hole 

I thought I made him happy 

Maybe at one point I did 

I guess in the end he just saw me as a little kid 

And ever since he left me 

I have been trying to hide my pain 

All I waited for was to be with him again 

Then I got the call 

Just like I thought he's moved along 

I guess I'm not the one that makes him happy 

Holds his hand and wont let him go 

My heart is his and always will be 

Now I must move on 

Just like he did when he left me all alone 

It's ok 

I'll be fine long after he's gone  :(

Another Broken Heart - Poem

Every time I looked into these pretty eyes of yours,
I went back to that time I was a child.

I saw the sky so blue,
I played joyfully with loud happy giggles when i was around you.

I felt true passion,
I trusted the word L O V E,
making me fly like a pure white dove.

You were that white angel I shaped looking at the night stars.
You were that brave knight I securely gave the key of my heart.
I got lost in those dark eyes for anything you do,
& promised with my soul to never let go of you.

Now, for the so much love I had in the past time,
you have no idea how I turned into a hate-mind.

Remember when my heart was the deepest ocean in the wide world?
When you couldn't see that you were the blue diamond that colorfulness's it.
& when you didn't fight for keeping a single happy memory, too.

i asked to let me love you,
like no one knew love before.
Let me show you,
a never lasting pure world.
Where lies are forbidden
& truth is permitted.
It's all about your fantasy,
all about the reason of your breathing.
Let me teach you,
make you selfish,
build you strong.
So if you ever decide to go,
I wont stop you.
'Cause I know you'll never feel the same else where,
the fantasy of a true love care.

But then you broke me down when you repeated your goodbyes,
Speechlessly-empty became my words,
as tears filled my eyes.

I had whispers telling me maybe its the best time to let go,
when all that hunted me was the idea I'll be dying sad & alone-

& How can such an angel who ripped off my heart & torn it to pieces,
was once my own..!?